Depression flare

The only way I can describe my depressive episodes is similar to a flare of any autoimmune disease. Right now I am not sure what triggers the episode or how it gets so crappy so quickly. But I guess, the stress of managing life with chronic illness is cumulative. Like any other flare, the exact

The buy in

I feel like I am in a constant state of panic and throughout the day the intensity varies. In counseling (local sessions weekly) we have worked on coping strategies such as imagery, meditation, progressive muscle relaxation and deep breathing. Oddly enough we worked on them but I never implemented them at the appropriate times. Somewhere

I’m back!

I somehow convinced myself that writing failed to benefit me and only to pushed myself into further isolation and to sink deeper into my depression. A lot happened. I lost my grandma June 18, 2019. She was in immense pain from what doctors deemed as colon cancer. My mom and I took care of her